Eyes wide open, mouth tightly closed...

Current Weight: 208

After much consideration and deliberation, I decided to follow the Weight Watchers flex plan with points. With all the meals I make for the kids and me and Mike, it is much easier to have the freedom to manuver through all kinds of foods. I automatically eat better foods because they have less points, and I am also tracking my fruits and veggies every day.

What opened my eyes this time, was the realization of how much I was actually eating. I am really trying to keep mindful of my hunger, but I really became aware when I started tracking my points this morning. I had eaten almost all my points (only 6 left for the day) by 1:00 pm! So I knew then that I would go over points, but I ate much less than I normally would have for the rest of the day.

So this has definitely put me back on track, back in control, and maybe later on I'll do Core plan, but right now, Flex is for me!

Do you know that there is a part of me that is afraid of having to watch what I eat. I actually feel anxious about it. I guess I don't like the feeling of depriving myself, even though it's not deprivation. It's living like a naturally slender person!!! AHA!

The Hunt for Brown October

Brown as in CHOCOLATE!!

Current weight: 209

Ok, how will I get through October successfully, with more awareness of hunger and tons of self control come HALLOWEEN!!

First off, we are giving out pretzels, pencils and plastic bugs. No mini candy bars! I know that I just can't have that stuff in the house. A naturally slender person wouldn't tempt themselves with it, they would pick something that was healthy, and something that would not tempt.

Second, while visiting anyone that may have candy, I allot myself 2 mini candy bars and eat it when I am hungry, not unconsciously, while hiding or on the fly. I'll also ensure that I exercise that day.

It's cooler outside, so walks would be nice.

Core or Flex

I've done Weight Watchers a few times before, and I've always done the Flex plan. But now I'm considering doing the Core plan, which focuses on healthier, more filling foods. It doesn't require tracking points, but it involves eating until I am satisfied, which follows right along with IOWL. Anything I do eat that's not on the Core food list, I have to track using points.

I do want to focus on my health now, it's important that I make that a priority this time, not just to lose weight. Take it day by day, getting as much health in every day as possible. I can't think about the amount that has to be lost.

I took my before pictures tonight with my computer camera. Ugh, it was tough, because I don't really want to see what I am right now, but I know I have to. I need to be focused on what needs to be done.